Brandy loves the babies.

Shadow watching the twins. This is one of my very favorite pics

My little Shadow Boy

Well I am hanging out at home. I do not have the girls today. Lets see since I wrote last time my litte Shadow dog has passed away. He is now with Damo up in heaven. I sure they are running around and having a great time. Shadow died at home which I am glad I didnot have to have him put down. I miss him running through the house and squeeging his toys. I miss his barking, but most of all his love, and his endless licks.


Since Shadow died I have been trying to keep Brandy busy, because she does miss him. They were together for 9 years. I have been taking her for walks which she loves. You cannot even say WALK or she runs to the table where her leash is at, so if I plan on taking her I have to spell Walk. Once she learns how to spell I am in trouble.


I miss Damo so bad. It is time to start into the holidays again which I refer to as pure hell. The pain does not go away you just learn to live with it. I miss him today as much as I did the day I lost him.


Mike has been as busy as ever at work. Today is his Friday off. So we are just hanging out at the house.


It has been so hot here. This week about 3 days were over 100, so I say bring on the cold weather. I love it to be cold, I do not like it hot.


Well that is it for the day. God bless everyone

My Babygirls Tash, Kayden and Dakota 9-4-2009

Cy 9-4-2009

Been a while since I posted to blog. I am in Orange right now and will be heading home to San Diego tonight at about 5:00. Came to visit my Mom and Bill as it has been a while since I have seen them.

Shadow is moving around a lot more since he has been on the antibiotic. He has been on it now for about 5 days. He has been a little more active then he had been. He hates having to take all the pills and will try not to swallow them, so it takes a bit to get them down. He is still wagging that helicopter tail of his and wanting to lick you like crazy. He still has a lot of love to give. Brandy has been a little more active with him the last couple of days.

Went to see Tash, Cy and the twins on Friday. My two little babygirls are growing up so fast, it is hard to believe that on Halloween they will be one already. I will be going with them, Tash and others sometime in October for their first trip to Disneyland. They may seem to young but believe me when I say they are not. The sounds, the sites and the characters will catch their attention. I had Damo out there before he turned two and he loved it and after that he and I were always out there. So I know the twins will go in October and then their Mom will have them out there all the time. We often laugh about the fact that when her and Damo were growing up that we were probably out there at the same times and just didn't know it. Disneyland is the Happiest Place on Earth, that I know. You walk in the front gate and it just hits you. I am real excitied to be out for the twins first time there. The twins are so darn cute and lovable. My babygirl Tassia makes a great mommy which I knew she would without a doubt.

We were on vacation from Aug. 10 to Aug 28th. We were in Chicago to see Paul, Laurie and the kids, Joe and Jerry and we also saw Mimi while we were there. We went to the Cubs game and then to Milwaukee to see the Brewers play my Padres. The Pads won and I still even got to see Trevor Hoffman so all was not lost. I got a Tony Gywnn foulball. It came up by us and Paul got it and gave it too me. I was excited. We them went to SC to see my Dad and all of my family on my Dad's side and my Mom's side. We had a great time. Family and friends have become so very important to me after the lost of Damo. It is not that they were not as important before he passed but it does make you see and understand how your life can change in just one instant of time. So it mays family seem so much much more important then ever before.

I miss Damo everyday. He is the first thing I think of in the morning, the last thing I think of at night, and thinking of him many hours of the day. It is a pain I have had to learn to live with and a pain that never stops. He was, is and will always be my babyboy.

Well That is it for the day, hopefully I will post more often now. I also am trying to redo Damo's web site on myangeldamo@zoomshare.com. I am resizing pictures and just taking my time with it. If you get a chance visit the site look around and then also go to the links site and look at some of his other sites that I have done

Love to all

Jackie

Picasa Web Albums - Jackie

Picasa Web Albums - Jackie

My Loves

My Girls

My girls came over today. Tassia, Heather, Dakota and Kayden. It was really good to see them. They were doing ok. Tash and Heather are as sweet and loving as always, and my grnaddaughters well, they are growing my leaps and bounds and are as beautiful as ever. Love them lots. We had a nice visit.

Not much else going on. I am still trying to get over this cold that is hanging on. Have to do another round of antibiotics.

Picasa Web Albums - Jackie

Picasa Web Albums - Jackie

Hello Everyone

Hi there,
Well today is April 22,2009. I thought I would jot down a blog and let evryone know what has been going on. Lets see what is happening.
Kylie's birthday was on April 8, 2009 and that Wednesday she, her sister and a few other girls were treated to a princess party where they were dressed up, had make up put on and kylie was the princess for the day. They were treated to lunch and when they needed to be served Kylie rang a bell. I was not here so I didnot go, as I was in Orange County. When I get pictures from the princess party I will post them.
Then on Saturday April 11,2009 Rachel had a birthday party for Kylie at home. Kylie is now 4 and I cannot believe how she is growing up. She gots lots of presents and she was excited for sure. She is a very smart little girl.
Kyra is growing up by leaps and bounds. She is in the first grade at school and she has a great time. She loves to go to school. She is doing a great job with her class work and gets a reward called "caught being good" and the teacher has a box of things that the kids can get when they get that reward. It is given out every Friday.
The twins and Ellie are growing up so fast and Grandma Jackie loves to see them when they come over. The twins are now six months and Tassia is such a good mother. She takes excellent care of them. Ellie is 16 months old and she is a busy girl. Her and her mom and dad just recently bought and moved into a condo. Ellie is adorable.
I have been sick since the first of April. I had tonsillitis and a sinus infection. The throat cleared up, but the sinus infection just got worse. I went back to the doctor and they put me on strong medication for 14 days to get rid of it. I have taken it for 7 days so far. It is starting to work but I still have a cough and sinus pressure. If it is not gone by next Monday my doctor wants me to call in for another 7 days of meds. I just want it to go away.
I am going to be seeing a therapist. In January I really started to get real depressed again so I went to a psychiatrast and he prescribed new meds to take with the other meds and it has really helped. He also wanted me to see a therapist and I did. Her name is Mary an she is really good. I think I just need someone who is not so involved to talk to. I told her that I know I will never get over the death of Damo and she said no you will not, but maybe talking with me will help you address some of the roughest issues. The Psychiatriast said to me the day he met me, that he could tell that deep down I blamed myself for Damo's death and the therapist also said that and guess what it is true. I know it is not my fault but deep down, but it has always been on my mind.
Mom, Bill and Mike have been so good to try and help me through the bad days and I love them so very much. Mom still has to deal with the pain of living with the death of Damo. It is like I said in my book, you have to take it one day at time and then some days it is one hour at a time. Mom, Bill, and Mike are always there for me when I cry and when I remember.
Damo's friends and my kids have been great. They are always a phone call away. If I need them all I have to do is call them. I love them all so very much. They come over and visit and make me laugh and I have a good time when they are here.
Stacy and Rachel are doing good. Mom and Bill just got back from San Francisco.
Well thats it so I will end for now. Take Care and I Send My Love To All. I will be posting more pictures on Pisca and sending them out.
Take Care and I Send My Love To All,
Love,
Jackie

My 5 Baby Girls Elly, Kylie, Dakota. Kyra and Kayden

Kylie, Dakota, Kayden and Kyra

My 3 Babygirls with 4 of my 5 little babygirls

My Kids; Love You

Elly, Dakota, Me, Kayden, Kyra and Kylie; Me with my grand-daughters

This is the cover of my book

Well I have pasted Damo's birthday and it was a heartbreaker. We are actually going this Saturday March 21, 2009. His family and friends are going out for his birthday. He would have been 23 years old this year. I just can't stand that he is gone. It still hurts as bad as it did the day he died. I know now that I will never get over this and that I just need to learn to take it day by day. The pain will always be present and I just have to learn to endure the pain. He is my life and my love.

Well my book is out now. I an't believe it. The actually release date is May 9, 2009, but the publisher's have it for sell on their web site. It is Publish America, then you go to online store. When you get to that screen you type in My Angel Damo and the book will show up. It has been a work of my grief and my pain and I hope to help someone else who is going through the same pain as me.

Well my Grandkids are all growing up. Kyra turned 7 on November 8, 2008 and Kylie will turn 4 on April 8th. The twins are 5 months old and Elly is 15 months old she was one year on December 18th.

My kids are doing great and keep me going day to day. Damo's friends have been so great to be and I love each and everyone of them.

I am babysitting Kylie everyday and I take Kyra to school and pick her up. She is doing real well in her studies. Her reading is great and she loves math. She is just in 1st grade and they have already got her working on money. Kylie has started a class on Thrusday's called Smart Start and it helps to get them ready for school. It is an 8 week class. She likes it and everyday she says is it time for me to go to school.

Mike is as busy as always at work. He has so much to do and works from early in the morning until about 7 at night. I hate that he has to work so many hours.

Rachel is doing real good. She has been working until 6:45 except on Friday's.

Mom and Bill have been in San Francisco and came back yesterday. They were taking a little rest and relaxtion. Mom's friend Mary came in from Texas and she will be with them until Saturday March 21.

Stacy and Logan are doing ok. They are skiing in Lake Tahoe this week and having a great time.

Baseball season starts on April 6th. We went ahead and got our half season tickets again this year. We were not going to at first, but we dedcided to go ahead and do it. I of course am so mad that they got rid of Trevor Hoffman. He was with the Padres for 16 years and now he is with the Brewers.

Well that's is for today. Take care