My Life, My Loves, My Family and My Friends

GCA

2011-06-08T17:47:00.001-07:00

SAW MY PCP YESTERDAY. WE TALKED ABOUT AND SHE TOLD ME THAT THIS WAS A VERY SERIOUS CONDITION. SHE SAID THAT DOCTOR'S WHO MISDIAGNOSED PATIENTS AND DID NOT GET THE RIGHT DIAGNOSIS THE PATIENT EITHER WENT BLIND OR THE PATIENT DIED.
SHE SAID IT WAS A DIBLATNG CONDITION WHICH IT HAS TAKEN A TOLL ON ME. I HAVE TO HAVE A CANE TO WALK WITH BECAUSE MY LEGS JUST GIVE OUT ON ME. I FEEL LIKE I AM BIG AS A HOUSE. THANK GOODNESS MY RHEUMATOLOGIST LOWERED MY STEROIDS TO 25mg NOW. IT HAS BEEN HARD AT TIMES BUT I HAVE IT AND I HAVE TO LEARN TO WORK WITH IT. SO JUST KEEP ME IN YOUR PRAYERS.
I AM STARTING PHYSICAL THERAPY NEXT WEEK. SO HOPEFULLY SHE SAID THAT I CAN GET SOME OF MY MOVEMENT BACK.
MIKE IS DOING GOOD. WORKING REAL HARD AND HELPING TO TAKE CARE OF ME. HE HAS BEEN SO GOOD TO ME.
HOPE EVERYONE ELSE IS DOING GOOD.
PRAY FOR AUNT VICKI WHO HAD 2 BACK SURGERIES
LOVE TO YOU ALL
JACKIE

Update GCA

2011-02-18T22:54:00.001-08:00

Had a visit with my PCP on my GCA yesterday. Still on 60mg. of steroids and puffed up like a blowfish. I feel like a big blob. They also have me on another med. called methantze which is a chemotherapy drug that John Hopkins had used in research.
This is going to be a long process and I do not know when it will go into remission but I know that It is something that I have to live with. It gets me down on some days but most of the days I just go with it.
Mike, My Mom and Bill have been so great. Mike has been wonderful. He has taken real good care of me.
Baseball season starts up in April. Yeah baseball.
Also one of my very favourites is NASCAR and the Daytona 500 is this Sunday. Yeah
Well will go now. I want to try and blog everyday but guess what my intentions are good.

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Location:San Diego

2010-03-01T19:53:00.000-08:00

And here he is Baby Blaine Due In July; We Love You Baby Blaine

Ellie and Grandpa Mike. He is showing her how to burp her baby

My preggo babygirl (Due in July)

Ellie is feeding is Trying to feed Brandy

My 3 Wrights (Four Wrights) Mom and Grandma Loves You

Happy Birthday Tassia; We Love You

My 3 babygirls Kota, Tassia and Kayden. The babies are both looking at their Mommy, I think that is so sweet!!

The Balloons heading upward

We Love You and Miss You Jason

Ballon Release in Memory of Jason at Funeral

Mike, Rachel, Ky, Chayne and Brandy

Ky and Kyra with their dolls

Bill and Kyra the bow girl

Mom Christmas Morning

Christmas decorations at my house

Happy 2nd Birthday my little Ellie

Kota and Kayden and the great pumpkin cake caper; Happy Birthday to my babygirls

Mommy with the cakes for her babygirls

I love my girls October 31, 2009

Kylie's 1st day at Preschool November 9, 2009

Kyra ready for her 1st day in 2nd grade September 8, 2009

It has been a while since I have posted on my blog. I promised myself I was going to do better at posting, guess what didn't, I just forget to do it. That is just like my coding credentials. I have to update it every two years and in 2008 I said I am not going to wait until the last minute. Guess what my CE Units are due on the 30th of April and I just got started on the credits I need, procrastination thats me.
I have got to get my act together, LOL that will be the day. My mind is on auto pilot most of the time. You have heard the lights are on, but nobody's home. Thats me!!!!
Let's see what has been going on. I was working on Damo's room and then his Angel date (Feruary 12 came around) and now it is March 1st and his birthday is March 11 so I will probably not really be working in there that much until these days go by. He has been gone for 4 years and guess what, I still am waiting to wake up from this nightmare that has been my life for the last four years. Its not easy and I take it day by day and sometimes its hour by hour. I Miss Him Like Crazy and My Heart Still Breaks, But I Know He is Watching Over All Of Us!! We Love You Damo!!!!!
Brandy is doing ok. I was worried about her after Shadow passed away. I started taking her on walks. She gets one in the morning between 7 and 8 and then another in the afternoon between 2 and 3. I swear that girl has an alarm clock attached to her. About 7am she starts pacing the floor, then at 2 she starts pacing because now it is time to eat, and then between 2:30 and 3:00 she starts pacing again because now its time to eat.
Well lets see I have to catch up on quite a bit so let me get started. Kyra started school and is in the 2nd grade, I can't believe it. Kylie started Pre-K and then next year she will be in kindgarten.

The twins turned one on October 31, 2009. It was a great party and it is so had to believe that they are one already. They are great. They are walking all over the place and it is so neat to see their personalities as they grow.

Ellie turned two on December 18, 2009. Her party was on December 13, 2009. I can't believe she is two already. My babies are growing up. Her party was a lot of fun.

I put up a tree this year, I have not done that since Damo died. It was hard but it was a pretty white tree and most all of the ornaments that were on there were Damo's.

We celebrated Christmas at Mom and Bill's. It was a lot of fun. Mom and Bill got me an amazing camera for christmas. I love it. I am going to take some photographer class.

My cousin Jason that had leukemia passed away in January. I wish he could have been able to beat it, and I know his Mom, Sister, Wife and Three Precious Little Boys Will Miss Him. Keep them in your prayers. WE MISS YOU JASON AND I HOPE GOD CAN HANDLE JASON ND DAMO TOGETHER. ONE THING I KNOW IT IS PROBABLY NOT AS QUIET IN HEAVEN NOW.

My babygirl Tassia had a birthday on January 19. We got together at The Old Spaghetti factory to celebrate her birthday. I am very proud of Tassia, she has done such a great job of raising the girls, by herself . Love you Babygirl!!

And my other babygirl Erika is going to have a babyboy in July. Erika is a great Mom and Ellie is so sweet. She and Jerry are excited they will now have a girl and a boy. I can't wait.

Grandma's had five girls and now I will have a grandson. I feel sorry for him with all the girls.

Well I think I have finished by update. Hopefully I will not let it go this long.

I Love My Family, My Kids, My Grandkids, My Friends

Love to all Jacke

2009-09-25T10:33:00.000-07:00

Brandy loves the babies.

Shadow watching the twins. This is one of my very favorite pics

My little Shadow Boy

Well I am hanging out at home. I do not have the girls today. Lets see since I wrote last time my litte Shadow dog has passed away. He is now with Damo up in heaven. I sure they are running around and having a great time. Shadow died at home which I am glad I didnot have to have him put down. I miss him running through the house and squeeging his toys. I miss his barking, but most of all his love, and his endless licks.

Since Shadow died I have been trying to keep Brandy busy, because she does miss him. They were together for 9 years. I have been taking her for walks which she loves. You cannot even say WALK or she runs to the table where her leash is at, so if I plan on taking her I have to spell Walk. Once she learns how to spell I am in trouble.

I miss Damo so bad. It is time to start into the holidays again which I refer to as pure hell. The pain does not go away you just learn to live with it. I miss him today as much as I did the day I lost him.

Mike has been as busy as ever at work. Today is his Friday off. So we are just hanging out at the house.

It has been so hot here. This week about 3 days were over 100, so I say bring on the cold weather. I love it to be cold, I do not like it hot.

Well that is it for the day. God bless everyone

2009-09-06T15:34:00.000-07:00

My Babygirls Tash, Kayden and Dakota 9-4-2009

Cy 9-4-2009

Been a while since I posted to blog. I am in Orange right now and will be heading home to San Diego tonight at about 5:00. Came to visit my Mom and Bill as it has been a while since I have seen them.

Shadow is moving around a lot more since he has been on the antibiotic. He has been on it now for about 5 days. He has been a little more active then he had been. He hates having to take all the pills and will try not to swallow them, so it takes a bit to get them down. He is still wagging that helicopter tail of his and wanting to lick you like crazy. He still has a lot of love to give. Brandy has been a little more active with him the last couple of days.

Went to see Tash, Cy and the twins on Friday. My two little babygirls are growing up so fast, it is hard to believe that on Halloween they will be one already. I will be going with them, Tash and others sometime in October for their first trip to Disneyland. They may seem to young but believe me when I say they are not. The sounds, the sites and the characters will catch their attention. I had Damo out there before he turned two and he loved it and after that he and I were always out there. So I know the twins will go in October and then their Mom will have them out there all the time. We often laugh about the fact that when her and Damo were growing up that we were probably out there at the same times and just didn't know it. Disneyland is the Happiest Place on Earth, that I know. You walk in the front gate and it just hits you. I am real excitied to be out for the twins first time there. The twins are so darn cute and lovable. My babygirl Tassia makes a great mommy which I knew she would without a doubt.

We were on vacation from Aug. 10 to Aug 28th. We were in Chicago to see Paul, Laurie and the kids, Joe and Jerry and we also saw Mimi while we were there. We went to the Cubs game and then to Milwaukee to see the Brewers play my Padres. The Pads won and I still even got to see Trevor Hoffman so all was not lost. I got a Tony Gywnn foulball. It came up by us and Paul got it and gave it too me. I was excited. We them went to SC to see my Dad and all of my family on my Dad's side and my Mom's side. We had a great time. Family and friends have become so very important to me after the lost of Damo. It is not that they were not as important before he passed but it does make you see and understand how your life can change in just one instant of time. So it mays family seem so much much more important then ever before.

I miss Damo everyday. He is the first thing I think of in the morning, the last thing I think of at night, and thinking of him many hours of the day. It is a pain I have had to learn to live with and a pain that never stops. He was, is and will always be my babyboy.

Well That is it for the day, hopefully I will post more often now. I also am trying to redo Damo's web site on myangeldamo@zoomshare.com. I am resizing pictures and just taking my time with it. If you get a chance visit the site look around and then also go to the links site and look at some of his other sites that I have done

Love to all

Jackie

Picasa Web Albums - Jackie

2009-04-26T20:15:00.000-07:00

Picasa Web Albums - Jackie

My Loves

My Girls

2009-04-26T18:40:00.000-07:00

My girls came over today. Tassia, Heather, Dakota and Kayden. It was really good to see them. They were doing ok. Tash and Heather are as sweet and loving as always, and my grnaddaughters well, they are growing my leaps and bounds and are as beautiful as ever. Love them lots. We had a nice visit.

Not much else going on. I am still trying to get over this cold that is hanging on. Have to do another round of antibiotics.

Picasa Web Albums - Jackie

2009-04-22T11:44:00.000-07:00

Picasa Web Albums - Jackie

Hello Everyone

2009-04-22T09:30:00.000-07:00

Hi there,
Well today is April 22,2009. I thought I would jot down a blog and let evryone know what has been going on. Lets see what is happening.
Kylie's birthday was on April 8, 2009 and that Wednesday she, her sister and a few other girls were treated to a princess party where they were dressed up, had make up put on and kylie was the princess for the day. They were treated to lunch and when they needed to be served Kylie rang a bell. I was not here so I didnot go, as I was in Orange County. When I get pictures from the princess party I will post them.
Then on Saturday April 11,2009 Rachel had a birthday party for Kylie at home. Kylie is now 4 and I cannot believe how she is growing up. She gots lots of presents and she was excited for sure. She is a very smart little girl.
Kyra is growing up by leaps and bounds. She is in the first grade at school and she has a great time. She loves to go to school. She is doing a great job with her class work and gets a reward called "caught being good" and the teacher has a box of things that the kids can get when they get that reward. It is given out every Friday.
The twins and Ellie are growing up so fast and Grandma Jackie loves to see them when they come over. The twins are now six months and Tassia is such a good mother. She takes excellent care of them. Ellie is 16 months old and she is a busy girl. Her and her mom and dad just recently bought and moved into a condo. Ellie is adorable.
I have been sick since the first of April. I had tonsillitis and a sinus infection. The throat cleared up, but the sinus infection just got worse. I went back to the doctor and they put me on strong medication for 14 days to get rid of it. I have taken it for 7 days so far. It is starting to work but I still have a cough and sinus pressure. If it is not gone by next Monday my doctor wants me to call in for another 7 days of meds. I just want it to go away.
I am going to be seeing a therapist. In January I really started to get real depressed again so I went to a psychiatrast and he prescribed new meds to take with the other meds and it has really helped. He also wanted me to see a therapist and I did. Her name is Mary an she is really good. I think I just need someone who is not so involved to talk to. I told her that I know I will never get over the death of Damo and she said no you will not, but maybe talking with me will help you address some of the roughest issues. The Psychiatriast said to me the day he met me, that he could tell that deep down I blamed myself for Damo's death and the therapist also said that and guess what it is true. I know it is not my fault but deep down, but it has always been on my mind.
Mom, Bill and Mike have been so good to try and help me through the bad days and I love them so very much. Mom still has to deal with the pain of living with the death of Damo. It is like I said in my book, you have to take it one day at time and then some days it is one hour at a time. Mom, Bill, and Mike are always there for me when I cry and when I remember.
Damo's friends and my kids have been great. They are always a phone call away. If I need them all I have to do is call them. I love them all so very much. They come over and visit and make me laugh and I have a good time when they are here.
Stacy and Rachel are doing good. Mom and Bill just got back from San Francisco.
Well thats it so I will end for now. Take Care and I Send My Love To All. I will be posting more pictures on Pisca and sending them out.
Take Care and I Send My Love To All,
Love,
Jackie

2009-03-17T14:24:00.000-07:00

My 5 Baby Girls Elly, Kylie, Dakota. Kyra and Kayden

Kylie, Dakota, Kayden and Kyra

My 3 Babygirls with 4 of my 5 little babygirls

My Kids; Love You

Elly, Dakota, Me, Kayden, Kyra and Kylie; Me with my grand-daughters

This is the cover of my book

Well I have pasted Damo's birthday and it was a heartbreaker. We are actually going this Saturday March 21, 2009. His family and friends are going out for his birthday. He would have been 23 years old this year. I just can't stand that he is gone. It still hurts as bad as it did the day he died. I know now that I will never get over this and that I just need to learn to take it day by day. The pain will always be present and I just have to learn to endure the pain. He is my life and my love.

Well my book is out now. I an't believe it. The actually release date is May 9, 2009, but the publisher's have it for sell on their web site. It is Publish America, then you go to online store. When you get to that screen you type in My Angel Damo and the book will show up. It has been a work of my grief and my pain and I hope to help someone else who is going through the same pain as me.

Well my Grandkids are all growing up. Kyra turned 7 on November 8, 2008 and Kylie will turn 4 on April 8th. The twins are 5 months old and Elly is 15 months old she was one year on December 18th.

My kids are doing great and keep me going day to day. Damo's friends have been so great to be and I love each and everyone of them.

I am babysitting Kylie everyday and I take Kyra to school and pick her up. She is doing real well in her studies. Her reading is great and she loves math. She is just in 1st grade and they have already got her working on money. Kylie has started a class on Thrusday's called Smart Start and it helps to get them ready for school. It is an 8 week class. She likes it and everyday she says is it time for me to go to school.

Mike is as busy as always at work. He has so much to do and works from early in the morning until about 7 at night. I hate that he has to work so many hours.

Rachel is doing real good. She has been working until 6:45 except on Friday's.

Mom and Bill have been in San Francisco and came back yesterday. They were taking a little rest and relaxtion. Mom's friend Mary came in from Texas and she will be with them until Saturday March 21.

Stacy and Logan are doing ok. They are skiing in Lake Tahoe this week and having a great time.

Baseball season starts on April 6th. We went ahead and got our half season tickets again this year. We were not going to at first, but we dedcided to go ahead and do it. I of course am so mad that they got rid of Trevor Hoffman. He was with the Padres for 16 years and now he is with the Brewers.

Well that's is for today. Take care

2009-03-17T14:16:00.000-07:00

Well today is February 23, 2009, and on February 12, 2009 Damo has been gone three years. To me it seems like yesterday. This is the just about the most life ending exprienece. I miss him so bad and I wish I could be with him. His birthday is coming up on March 11 and that is a day that instead of all the happiness, finding him the many presents he wanted and birthday cake for friends and his birthday flan that Grandma made just for him, we will instead be out at a cemetary celebrating his birthday. He would be 23 on his birthday. My life as been so changed by this, that I cannot even begin to explain it too all of you. I cannot even began to tell you of the heartache that Mom and I go through everyday. The pain some days is so unbearable that I wish I would just go to sleep and not wake up.Please keep me in your prayers, because as the years go on the pain seems to get worse. It has not gotten any easier. I miss him so bad and the pain is never ending

Love to all,Jackie

Reposted from February 25, 2009

2009-03-17T14:01:00.000-07:00

Moving into the holidays; Not a Good Time For Me!!

Tassia and Robert October 7, 2008

I have not posted in a while. I am dreading the days that we are heading for. Please keep me in your prayers. The next six months is the time that is the hardest for me. It starts with Halloween and goes all the way through March which is Damo's birthday. I try and stay busy.Well lets see whats up with the California group.I am of course still watching my girls. They are so great. Kylie's thing now is to either say "don't care" or "cause I said so". Kyra loves going to school and now that she does not have to be there so early she is up and ready to go. She starts school at 9:15, but she gets there at 8:45 so she can eat breakfast and then run laps. They get a stick for each lap they run and when they get 20 they get a prize, so she likes to do her laps.I turned my book in on October 1 and it is now in the proofing stage. They said that it could take a couple of months, so it will probably be after the first of the year before it comes out. I had put two pictures of Damo and then a picture of Marty, Cindy, Ashtain, Hannah, Mom, Mike and I and then i put one of Damo's friends and I at the grave for Damo's birthday in March 2007 so I have to get a signed release from everyone that is in the pictures, so that is what i have been doing.I also have been trying to keep up on all the medical coding and billing news, and medical news in general. I have started a site for medical coding, billing, medical terms and anatomy. The heading of my site is Coders do it with numbers, so I have been reading all of my medical news that I subscribe to so I can start my site up.Mike is busy has ever at work. It always keeps him hopping. He works all the time. The Chargers of course lost last week. I hope they do better this week. They better, the defense is horrible, and last week the offense was off too. Hopefully they turn it around.Of course the Padres sucked this year. I was so disappointed with them. They couldn't hit the ball, catch the ball or even throw the ball. I hope they get lots of practice in this off season. Mike and I have half season tickets so we go to about 40 games. It is great because we both like sports. He even watches NASCAR now, and even knows the name of some of the drivers. My favorite is Tony Stewart and home town boy Jimmy Johnson. My baby girl Tassia was here last week on Tuesday after her doctor's appt. and the babies were both breech. Now yesterday she was at the doctor's office and her labor pains were so bad that they kept her for a couple of hours and gave her stufff to stop the contractions. She is 50% effaced and one baby is still breech and the other one is vertex. Now the doctor is planning on doing a c-section in two weeks if the babies are not head down. She is so ready to have the girls come. Once she gets too 36 weeks the doctor said it was ok. She is going into he 35 weeks.My nephew Cody has returned back to California. He is going to be at Camp Pendlton til Christmas and then he goes to Yuma for two years which is two hours away from us. So I am glad about that.Damo's friends are doing good. I see some of them quite often and that I am happy about. They are truly my kids and I love them all very much.
Mom and Bill are doing ok. I was up about two weeks ago. Work is driving mom crazy and she is so ready to get out of that place. I try and get up there at least once a month and try and stay a couple of days and sometimes I get to stay for week which is real nice. It helps me to be with my Mom.
I have some real bad days and some good days. I just take it one day at a time and that is all I can do. I miss him with all my heart and soul. I try and remember the memories which helps. I love him and it does hurt I will tell you that. It is like someone put a huge rock on my chest or just ripped my heart out. Jut keep me in your prayers. Will I have get over it NO. I just have to learn to live with it
Love to all
Jackie

Reposted from October 11, 2008

2009-03-17T13:48:00.000-07:00

Jane's Birthday

Jane's Littlest Love Little Miss Emma
This is Jane, Jerry, Jermiah, Megan, April and Amanda

Today is Jane's Birthday. That is Mike's babysister. We love you sis Happy Birthday Reposted from September 19, 2008

2009-03-04T18:25:00.000-08:00

This picture of Ashtain was made on July 19, 2008 at Denni's Baby shower

This is one of my very favorite picture's of Damo and Ashtain

Today is Damo's sister Ashtain's Birthday. She is 16 today. She has turned into a beautiful young lady and Damo would be so proud of her.
We love you sweetie
Mike, Jackie, Grandma Barb and Bill, and your angel in heaven Damo

Reposted From September 19, 2008

IT HAS TO BE IN THE WATER!!

2009-03-04T18:15:00.001-08:00

This is a picture of Tash that I took on September 2, 2008. We had just got back from her Doctor's appt. She has two girls Kayden and Dakota

This is my neice Denni's baby. Cash Hunter born August 27th

I read Ashlee's blog about it being in the water and I agree. With the five back there and the ones out here babies are popping up all over the place.
My neice Denni just had her baby August 27th.
My babygirl Tassia is having twins. They are due in November, but will probably be early. She is hoping for October Babies. I am so excitied for her.
Babies mean love and God has blessed you.
Love them with all your heart and soul
Love to all of you
Jackie

(First Posted On September 18, 2008

MY CHARGERS WERE ROBBED

2009-03-03T20:02:00.000-08:00

On Sunday's game against Denver the Chargers were not only playing against the Broncos they were also playing against the ref's. Two bad calls, and the ref. admits to the one call being wrong and we lose by one point.
I can tell you now the San Diego fans were so mad.
So maybe the ref's should thank their lucky stars that the game was in Denver.
The first call was that it was an interception by Denver, guess what the player had hit the ground and his left arm was down. The replay equipment was not working so it stood as an interception.
The second call, the Quarterback gets ready to throw the ball and it slips out of his hand. The Chargers intercept, but it is calld a fumble. The ref calls it wrong and even admits to calling it wrong, so Denver keeps the ball.
What a crock

(First Posted September 17, 2008)

HI EVERYONE

2009-03-03T19:13:00.000-08:00

This is my girls Kylie and Kyra with my four legged kids Brandy (boxer) and Shadow (Lab and boxer mix)

Well I am going to try and start this blogging so I can keep everyone up on what is going on in California. I am doing ok. Some days I have very bad day, some days that are not as bad, and some days are good. I just take it one day at a time.Mike is doing good, but is so busy at work he said last night that he should just move in there.Mom and Bill are doing ok. Mom is thinking of retiring at the end of this year. I think Bill is planning to retire then also.Rachel is doing ok. She broke her wrist last week. Other than that she is doing good.Stacy and Logan are doing real great, they still lives in Las Vegas and work keeps them both busy.I am still babysitting the girls. Kyra is in 1st grade, and she will be 7 on November 8th. She is now going to the school by our house so I can walk her to school. Kylie turned 3 on April 8th of this year. She is a very busy little girl and she reminds me a lot of Damo, in her actions. She is stubborn and so was Damo. She is a little sweet heart, I love taking care of both the girls. They do keep my mind occupied.

(First Posted September 17, 2008)