My 5 Baby Girls Elly, Kylie, Dakota. Kyra and Kayden

Kylie, Dakota, Kayden and Kyra

My 3 Babygirls with 4 of my 5 little babygirls

My Kids; Love You

Elly, Dakota, Me, Kayden, Kyra and Kylie; Me with my grand-daughters

This is the cover of my book

Well I have pasted Damo's birthday and it was a heartbreaker. We are actually going this Saturday March 21, 2009. His family and friends are going out for his birthday. He would have been 23 years old this year. I just can't stand that he is gone. It still hurts as bad as it did the day he died. I know now that I will never get over this and that I just need to learn to take it day by day. The pain will always be present and I just have to learn to endure the pain. He is my life and my love.

Well my book is out now. I an't believe it. The actually release date is May 9, 2009, but the publisher's have it for sell on their web site. It is Publish America, then you go to online store. When you get to that screen you type in My Angel Damo and the book will show up. It has been a work of my grief and my pain and I hope to help someone else who is going through the same pain as me.

Well my Grandkids are all growing up. Kyra turned 7 on November 8, 2008 and Kylie will turn 4 on April 8th. The twins are 5 months old and Elly is 15 months old she was one year on December 18th.

My kids are doing great and keep me going day to day. Damo's friends have been so great to be and I love each and everyone of them.

I am babysitting Kylie everyday and I take Kyra to school and pick her up. She is doing real well in her studies. Her reading is great and she loves math. She is just in 1st grade and they have already got her working on money. Kylie has started a class on Thrusday's called Smart Start and it helps to get them ready for school. It is an 8 week class. She likes it and everyday she says is it time for me to go to school.

Mike is as busy as always at work. He has so much to do and works from early in the morning until about 7 at night. I hate that he has to work so many hours.

Rachel is doing real good. She has been working until 6:45 except on Friday's.

Mom and Bill have been in San Francisco and came back yesterday. They were taking a little rest and relaxtion. Mom's friend Mary came in from Texas and she will be with them until Saturday March 21.

Stacy and Logan are doing ok. They are skiing in Lake Tahoe this week and having a great time.

Baseball season starts on April 6th. We went ahead and got our half season tickets again this year. We were not going to at first, but we dedcided to go ahead and do it. I of course am so mad that they got rid of Trevor Hoffman. He was with the Padres for 16 years and now he is with the Brewers.

Well that's is for today. Take care

Well today is February 23, 2009, and on February 12, 2009 Damo has been gone three years. To me it seems like yesterday. This is the just about the most life ending exprienece. I miss him so bad and I wish I could be with him. His birthday is coming up on March 11 and that is a day that instead of all the happiness, finding him the many presents he wanted and birthday cake for friends and his birthday flan that Grandma made just for him, we will instead be out at a cemetary celebrating his birthday. He would be 23 on his birthday. My life as been so changed by this, that I cannot even begin to explain it too all of you. I cannot even began to tell you of the heartache that Mom and I go through everyday. The pain some days is so unbearable that I wish I would just go to sleep and not wake up.Please keep me in your prayers, because as the years go on the pain seems to get worse. It has not gotten any easier. I miss him so bad and the pain is never ending

Love to all,Jackie

Reposted from February 25, 2009

Moving into the holidays; Not a Good Time For Me!!

Tassia and Robert October 7, 2008

I have not posted in a while. I am dreading the days that we are heading for. Please keep me in your prayers. The next six months is the time that is the hardest for me. It starts with Halloween and goes all the way through March which is Damo's birthday. I try and stay busy.Well lets see whats up with the California group.I am of course still watching my girls. They are so great. Kylie's thing now is to either say "don't care" or "cause I said so". Kyra loves going to school and now that she does not have to be there so early she is up and ready to go. She starts school at 9:15, but she gets there at 8:45 so she can eat breakfast and then run laps. They get a stick for each lap they run and when they get 20 they get a prize, so she likes to do her laps.I turned my book in on October 1 and it is now in the proofing stage. They said that it could take a couple of months, so it will probably be after the first of the year before it comes out. I had put two pictures of Damo and then a picture of Marty, Cindy, Ashtain, Hannah, Mom, Mike and I and then i put one of Damo's friends and I at the grave for Damo's birthday in March 2007 so I have to get a signed release from everyone that is in the pictures, so that is what i have been doing.I also have been trying to keep up on all the medical coding and billing news, and medical news in general. I have started a site for medical coding, billing, medical terms and anatomy. The heading of my site is Coders do it with numbers, so I have been reading all of my medical news that I subscribe to so I can start my site up.Mike is busy has ever at work. It always keeps him hopping. He works all the time. The Chargers of course lost last week. I hope they do better this week. They better, the defense is horrible, and last week the offense was off too. Hopefully they turn it around.Of course the Padres sucked this year. I was so disappointed with them. They couldn't hit the ball, catch the ball or even throw the ball. I hope they get lots of practice in this off season. Mike and I have half season tickets so we go to about 40 games. It is great because we both like sports. He even watches NASCAR now, and even knows the name of some of the drivers. My favorite is Tony Stewart and home town boy Jimmy Johnson. My baby girl Tassia was here last week on Tuesday after her doctor's appt. and the babies were both breech. Now yesterday she was at the doctor's office and her labor pains were so bad that they kept her for a couple of hours and gave her stufff to stop the contractions. She is 50% effaced and one baby is still breech and the other one is vertex. Now the doctor is planning on doing a c-section in two weeks if the babies are not head down. She is so ready to have the girls come. Once she gets too 36 weeks the doctor said it was ok. She is going into he 35 weeks.My nephew Cody has returned back to California. He is going to be at Camp Pendlton til Christmas and then he goes to Yuma for two years which is two hours away from us. So I am glad about that.Damo's friends are doing good. I see some of them quite often and that I am happy about. They are truly my kids and I love them all very much.
Mom and Bill are doing ok. I was up about two weeks ago. Work is driving mom crazy and she is so ready to get out of that place. I try and get up there at least once a month and try and stay a couple of days and sometimes I get to stay for week which is real nice. It helps me to be with my Mom.
I have some real bad days and some good days. I just take it one day at a time and that is all I can do. I miss him with all my heart and soul. I try and remember the memories which helps. I love him and it does hurt I will tell you that. It is like someone put a huge rock on my chest or just ripped my heart out. Jut keep me in your prayers. Will I have get over it NO. I just have to learn to live with it
Love to all
Jackie

Reposted from October 11, 2008

Jane's Birthday

Jane's Littlest Love Little Miss Emma
This is Jane, Jerry, Jermiah, Megan, April and Amanda

Today is Jane's Birthday. That is Mike's babysister. We love you sis Happy Birthday Reposted from September 19, 2008

This picture of Ashtain was made on July 19, 2008 at Denni's Baby shower

This is one of my very favorite picture's of Damo and Ashtain

Today is Damo's sister Ashtain's Birthday. She is 16 today. She has turned into a beautiful young lady and Damo would be so proud of her.
We love you sweetie
Mike, Jackie, Grandma Barb and Bill, and your angel in heaven Damo

Reposted From September 19, 2008

IT HAS TO BE IN THE WATER!!

This is a picture of Tash that I took on September 2, 2008. We had just got back from her Doctor's appt. She has two girls Kayden and Dakota

This is my neice Denni's baby. Cash Hunter born August 27th

I read Ashlee's blog about it being in the water and I agree. With the five back there and the ones out here babies are popping up all over the place.
My neice Denni just had her baby August 27th.
My babygirl Tassia is having twins. They are due in November, but will probably be early. She is hoping for October Babies. I am so excitied for her.
Babies mean love and God has blessed you.
Love them with all your heart and soul
Love to all of you
Jackie

(First Posted On September 18, 2008

MY CHARGERS WERE ROBBED

On Sunday's game against Denver the Chargers were not only playing against the Broncos they were also playing against the ref's. Two bad calls, and the ref. admits to the one call being wrong and we lose by one point.
I can tell you now the San Diego fans were so mad.
So maybe the ref's should thank their lucky stars that the game was in Denver.
The first call was that it was an interception by Denver, guess what the player had hit the ground and his left arm was down. The replay equipment was not working so it stood as an interception.
The second call, the Quarterback gets ready to throw the ball and it slips out of his hand. The Chargers intercept, but it is calld a fumble. The ref calls it wrong and even admits to calling it wrong, so Denver keeps the ball.
What a crock

(First Posted September 17, 2008)

HI EVERYONE

This is my girls Kylie and Kyra with my four legged kids Brandy (boxer) and Shadow (Lab and boxer mix)

Well I am going to try and start this blogging so I can keep everyone up on what is going on in California. I am doing ok. Some days I have very bad day, some days that are not as bad, and some days are good. I just take it one day at a time.Mike is doing good, but is so busy at work he said last night that he should just move in there.Mom and Bill are doing ok. Mom is thinking of retiring at the end of this year. I think Bill is planning to retire then also.Rachel is doing ok. She broke her wrist last week. Other than that she is doing good.Stacy and Logan are doing real great, they still lives in Las Vegas and work keeps them both busy.I am still babysitting the girls. Kyra is in 1st grade, and she will be 7 on November 8th. She is now going to the school by our house so I can walk her to school. Kylie turned 3 on April 8th of this year. She is a very busy little girl and she reminds me a lot of Damo, in her actions. She is stubborn and so was Damo. She is a little sweet heart, I love taking care of both the girls. They do keep my mind occupied.

(First Posted September 17, 2008)